After turning down our referral ( after TA) I was heart broke, And though we have received another referral and returned home from China with her. My heart always wondered and was broke for the one we turned down. I found myself on my knees praying for this little girl. Don't get me wrong, I know our daughter now is most definitely meant to be our daughter and I love her dearly, but when you let one go, it stays with you. Haunting you, is she OK, is she being carried for. Does she have some one to hold her...My heart wondered this often.
Well I received an email the other day from a family that followed our blog. When they shared their adoption site with me it was our first referral. God is good. Only God knew that I felt guilty,that for me to let go, I needed to know she was taken care of. I am amazed at what God can do.....Not only do I have the daughter I was meant to have but by following God's plan this little girl who I have prayed for night after night is with her forever family. Growing strong and happy. My adoption journey has been more than a journey to unit me with my daughter, but it has grown my spiritual walk with Christ so much. I do believe that all that has accrued was God's way getting these 2 girls to the family that he chose for them. My sweet Khloei with us, and our first referral with her forever family. If you are going through any type of loss over a referral, I know your pain, But God can do things you could never imagine. If you trust him enough to to follow his will.
Our new blog is http://steens2china.blogspot.com/
or our travel blog http://www.myadoptionwebsite.com/khloei/
